jangan menyerah

oke ini udah yang kesekian kali nya gue gagal ikut test-test perguruan tinggi negeri. kali ini SNMPTN 2010 gue gagal ha ! malu, kesel, sedih, kecewa ---> belajar udah gue lakuin sampai gue ikut bimbingan belajar, aaaah tapi ada yang kurang, gue gak deket sama sang Maha pencipta yang selama ini gue masih banyak bolong-bolong dalam menjalankan ibadah-Nya.

keluarga gue udah banyak yang doain gue agar keterima di salah satu perguruan tinggi negeri. gue malu banget banyak keluarga gue yang kecewa dari nyokap, buya(panggilan untuk kakek), ibu, ayah, om dan tante gue ! Ya Allah aku iri dengan semua teman SMP aku, mereka banyak yang berhasil nembus di ptn .


lalu bagaimana dengan masa depan gue ? mau makan apa anak-istri gue nanti ? sekarang udah mulai terbayang dalam otak gue. aaaah gue sekarang yang jajan cuma 50rb perminggu itu udah susah banget. gue harus irit, membatalkan semua keinginan gue, jalan sama pacar pun akhir nya gue kurangin aaaah !

gue mau ngerubah hidup gue, gue mau ngerubah taraf hidup keluarga gue ! mulai sekarang gue harus bisa, HARUS BISA ! jangan cuma males-malesan lagi, jangan cuma angkat telunjuk lalu nyuruh! gue rubah dulu sifat gue dan mulai semangat lagi.

"bahagiaku adalah bahagia mereka juga"

can't smile without you

Artist: Barry Manilow
Album: Even Now (1978)
Song: Can't Smile Without You
Country: USA 
Hits: 273


You know I can't smile without you

I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm finding it hard to do anything
You see I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
If you only knew what I'm going through
I just can't smile without you

You came along just like a song
And brighten my day
Who would of believed that you where part of a dream
Now it all seems light years away

And now you know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm finding it hard to do anything
You see I feel sad when your sad
I feel glad when you're glad
If you only knew what I'm going through
I just can't smile

Now some people say happiness takes so very long to find
Well, I'm finding it hard leaving your love behind me

And you see I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm finding it hard to do anything
You see I feel glad when you're glad
I feel sad when you're sad
If you only knew what I'm going through
I just can't smile without you 

high school graduation

first of all I thank GOD, I can succeed at this first stage. The second I thank all who have prayed me up, up like this.

This new first stage of the entire series of examinations in towards my future.

My national final examination results as follows:

mathematics: 8:25
Indonesia: 8.00
English: 7.60
economics: 7.75
geography: 8:00
sociology: 6:00
total: 45.60

This all results are satisfactory for me and my parents. I now have a target for entry into public universities in Indonesia.